You'd think that as we age, the meaning of luv would become clearer. I used to think i knew the answer what luv is all about. You meet a guy, you fall in luv, The end. The concept that luv had to be worked at yet to make an impact in my tiny little world. By my mid-teens, my belief that luv was merely being with someone who wanted to be with you continued to be strengtened by the few bfs who fitted in and out of my life. I never treid to understand or attempt a definition of love then. It just was. The idea then was to enjoy being in each other's company and not fighting. That's it. Simple. Except life never is.
I was 20 when i started dating a guy who clearly had a much more limited definition of the concept than i did. While my idea of being with someone meant spending enormous time together, his was to give in to his suspicious mind. My introduction to the jeolous bf was a life-changing affair of which, suffice to say, the scars still remain. Why i took so long to walk away is a question that still bothers me but I'd like to blame the whole fiasco on my poorly defined ideal of love. I had to reconsider my stance that love just is. I took a break from men altogether, opting to stay in and study or hang out with friends rather than seek something I clearly didnt understand. I think being in luv is about butterflies in tummy, pulse racing, heart pounding, daydreaming and not to forget being "perasan". Actually being perasan is not a crime. I enjoy being perasan just like I enjoy eating lepat pisang after a long day at work. But I think..luv is more than that.. it's about chemistry...whether we clicked or "not clicked".
Now..At this age ....I enjoy being an adult and still waiting for the rite one to come into my life coz " Im not a girl..Im a grown up woman...what I need is time...the moment that is mine.. bla bla bla....hehehe..Eh tetiba je I jadi serious and it worries me coz I dun like my "serious self"..I enjoy stupid jokes and I like making one myself..LOL
Ok..gtg.. I need to feed my baby kerbau...
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You mention kerbau pretty often - do you do them commercially? Do you have a farm? I don't have experience with kerbau. Is there a market for kerbau? Sounds interesting though, this kerbau business, that is.
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ReplyDeleteAllow me to give an idea, i suggest you buy a traffic light, if you could not find any shop selling that, steal it somewhere, perhaps you may steal it anywhere in Sg Petani sebab depa ni suka sgt letak traffic light bnyk2, or i think better you go a little down to Sg Bakap so that anyone will not expect someone from Pendangshire steal it. But dont steal yang KolaKedah punya sbb situ ada satu jer traffic light, sat ni KK folks will go haywire. Once u get the traffic light, keep it, whenever your 'right one' coming, you just need to switch on the Red light (Preferably with the blinking STOP word) to let your 'right one' not to go away this time. Errmmmm... i think i'm gonna get myself a traffic light too...
Salam Mr. Bergen.
ReplyDeleteSir, I do have baby kerbau...no joke about it..but I dun do commercial farming..I only have a few ekor(s), but I consider doing it commercially someday provided I have enuff fund and not to mention skills and knowledge as well. ..For the time being, I enjoy doing my own research on kerbau genetic (please don't laugh)..heheh.. LOL
Have a nice day sir..
You're lucky to "f.i.l." at 20. The ups and downs that you'd gone through in those 13 precious years; makes you mellowed with age. Your Mr Right is around and with your brand new anti-glare glass in place, it is just a matter of time ;)
ReplyDeleteBijou : lol..i likeeeeeeeeee the idea very much. Very inovative, creative and practical. I'd never ever steal the one at kolakedah err from Sg. Bakap..perhaps..LOL
ReplyDeleteLaptop : Abglap...u're very korekk (plsz pronounce correct)..He's around and I'll wait for him forever..errr and I wish to find "Someone like..." ..LOL
Yeah, I do agree with Encik Laptop here CK, I once visualised you were driving (with your old topless red car which you once mistaken it with someone's else car infront of that bank and that owner of the other car mad at you and accusing you to steal his car - how can he think of such, how can a lady that keeps kerbau knows and give a damn to steal a car, she got a kerbau laaaa she don't care about car if she don't own one - before he knows you are a Malay lady carry a very Malay name for a Korea lady which that the owner of the other car try his best to speak Korean angrily but ended up sounds like a chinese speaks broken mandarin)along Jalan Kola Kedah and there were 2 abang dudas follow you and when you reach the KK Traffic Light, one abang holding a big card with something written on it that reads 'will you go cendoling with me?' and the other abang just admiring you but holding another card saying 'can you pull over at the nearest police station so that I can get to know you better and you don't think that I'm a pathetic moron following you for the last hour'..
ReplyDeleteBut I'm not gonna continue telling you all about what I visualised on this because I just don't want to.
Bijou : LoL...u still remember that humiliating incident..How I wished the earth opened and swallowed me alive. How could I'd mistaken someone else's car as mine ?? That was a mistake..no doubt about that. His car looked exactly like mine...very belumoih (kedah's verb),,LOL. Err.. who knows, that 2 dudas might be my potential Mr. Rite..hahaha..
ReplyDeletebelumoih = dirty/berlumpur or "very mesra alam"